My mind says for now.
My body says why not.My heart says just a little longer.
It's not like every nerve ending in me is screaming no, but it's definitely not an emphatic yes either. It's not what I wanted.
My conscious and subconscious separate from their awkward union and I'm temporarily a ship without a captain, waiting to see which one will take hold. Deciding whether or not I will do it.
Just for the sake of it.